I’m going to be honest; I’m not really sure what I’m going to be writing about today, but I promised myself that I’d put something out every day. So here we are.

I’ve been working a lot on writing my book recently, and I’m pretty far into it but the problem I keep running into is actually sitting down to get started. Once I start writing I’m fine, but I will just keep opening my computer with the intention to work on the book but I always end up getting distracted by something else. Well, not always, like I said, I have been getting a lot done.

I’m at a weird crossroads in my life right now where I’ve finally figured out that regardless of what else I do with my life that I know I want to be a writer. The problem is, I don’t know how to go about doing that. I always knew that I’d get to a point where I’d decide that I wanted to work for myself, I’ve thought about it multiple times in the past few years. I have a really hard time with people who tell me that they want me to go above and beyond but then when I do I get reprimanded for sticking out.

And honestly, that’s what I’ve come to discover about most workplaces; they advertise the job like, “Looking for driven, responsible individual who is willing to go the distance and then some.” But really all they’re looking for is someone to come in, do the job, be quiet, and go home. The ad should really look something like this, “Looking for person to do job, qualified, but not over qualified, willing to live life as a background character and only ever do what is asked of them.”

That would be fine if they marketed it like that, but I don’t think they’d get the results they’d want if they did that. I grew up on the stage and was taught always to do my best and then some, the show must go on and it must go on beautifully. Growing up I’d implement my zeal and vigor into everything that I did, all the time. I would like to quote Nick Offerman in this moment to say that I’d never “half ass two things” I’d only ever “whole ass one thing”. And that’s not to say that I’d only ever do one thing at a time, dear god no, I always was doing at least 4 things at once but you better believe that my entire ass was in gear for each and every one of those things.

I don’t know how to “just do the bare minimum”, when I do something I DO it. I throw my entire heart and soul into what I’m doing and I do my best all the time, every time with a positive attitude and a smile on my face. But recently I’ve just been feeling like the world just wants me to keep my head down and be average and that’s been really tough for me because I have always been a “head up and looking forward” type of person and I like being shiny, and bubbly, and positive. And if I’m being honest, I don’t know why people wouldn’t want that, I think the world would be so much better of a place if people were passionate about what they did on a daily basis.

Recently I’ve been getting up, making coffee, sitting down, and writing a blog post. And I’ve truly gotten so much positivity out of that; it makes me feel like I’ve started my day off right, doing something I’m passionate about.

The moral of this rant, if there is one to be found, is that no matter what I end up doing in my daily life, I am happy that I’ve finally started to grow into my title of “writer” and I’m never going to stop putting my entire ass into everything I do, because what’s the fun in waking up and doing things part way? Who knows. 🙂